I was fortunate to never really experience bullying when I
was in middle school. Yes there was immense pressure to be “popular” and have
new clothes and wear make-up and platform flip-flops but I don’t remember ever
really caring about that kind of stuff too early. I guess I was a late bloomer in
some senses and I’m really grateful for that. However, that doesn’t mean I enjoyed
it when Bradley Greenwell called me four-eyes one day when I wore my glasses or
that I didn’t feel self-conscious when my mom wouldn’t let me wear eye shadow
or much mascara.
Overall though I had a pretty normal middle school
experience. I experienced it, got through it, and moved on. I remember vaguely
starting to have serious crushes on boys, of starting to round brush my hair more
often, and being more aware of people’s feelings and circumstances.
Of course there was a lot of awkwardness that accompanied my
three years at Lakeridge Junior High. I was slightly embarrassed that I had to
get special permission from my geometry teacher to use the hall pass every day
to go to the bathroom since my problems with Crohn’s were still being worked
out. I remember arguing with my mom over the length of my shorts and the
sleeves on my shirts. I also clearly remember all the school dances with the
slightly dark gym floor, the 7th graders playing tag, and the 9th
graders pretending to be cool and dance in the middle.
School dances in middle school and the word anxiety are synonymous.
I would get ready for every dance in the hope that sometime before
nine when the dance ended I would hear the music of Enrique Iglesias’s “Hero”
and Josh Bishop would stroll over to me, tap me on the shoulder, and ask me to
slow dance with him.
(BTW, he always did and I thought I was on cloud 9)
But now those three years are very much a blur. It’s been
almost ten years since I conquered junior high and boy, I’m glad to be done
with those years. They were years of inner turmoil, years of figuring out the
beginnings of adulthood, years of realizing who I was becoming and who I wanted
to become, years of stylish ignorance and exploration, and years of come-and-go
crushes and heartbreaks.
But I wouldn’t take back those years for anything. They were
priceless years of learning and growth and although they were hard and
difficult, they were character building.
So listen to this podcast from the NPR program This American Life. Listen and reminisce about
your years in middle school and the awkwardness that it was. I couldn’t stop
laughing as I listened to the stories of current middle-schoolers and their
woes and travails. I promise that the hour you listen will not disappoint.
Ah Hero...Enrique...9th grade night dances. Did you know that to this day I still think of you and Josh and that tape (that makes us seem old) you made me EVERY time I hear that song? Haha! And did I ever tell you that one time I was cleaning out the room at my mom's house and found a bunch of awesomely folded letters from you and most of them centered around Josh and how much we loved him? Haha good times...awkward times...but good times!
ReplyDeleteOh the memories. I haven't thought about that stuff for a long time but now it is all coming back. Drama, drama, drama. BTW, what ever happened to Brad Greenwell?
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